And the hardest part is knowing that i'll never follow through. And then the next thing i knew was that i'm slowly drowning myself with all this pain. I fell apart. I fell from all we had. To I never knew I needed you so bad. What are you doing me? And i can't let go of this pain. You're slowly killing me, and I wish it wasn't true. You told me I should be strong, i'm trying, i feel i can't go on. I pretended like nothing happened, and that i didn't know you anymore. For the first time, it's not you who can heal me. I love my friend, but i only want you. If i ever broke your heart, if i ever do you wrong, i hope i never you cause to doubt where you belong. I thought I’m going to see you now. I hope you’ll come for me. But after so long, there’s still no words from you. Can you forgive an idiot like me? Idiot, that's not true. I'm weak, it's true. Cause i'm afraid of the answer. A photo can capture the way we were, but it can't capture the way we are, cause you're far away. Talk to me, even if it's just to say goodbye. If you could understand me. Please forgive me, although I’m crying again. You can take it all away. I don't need it. Underneath, i'll still be the same. If i could only let you know, i'd give up everything i own. And i can barely look at you, but every single time i do. I can hardly speak, i understand. Why you can't raise your voice to say. I tried to go on like i never knew you. But i won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away. I don't mind spending everyday, out of the corner in the pouring rain. Look for the girl with the broken smile. It's tearing up my heart when i'm with you. When we are apart i feel it too. I know i tend to get so insecure. I cry, silently. I cry, inside of me. Cause i fell down and couldn't stand up. Why does it seem like you're so far away, though you're just here with me? It's killing me. Please don't try so hard to say goodbye. I'm burying myself in this pain i'm feeling. I swear that i'll be strong. I mean what I say today. But tomorrow I'll know that I was lying. I only wish you knew how this feeling scares me so. Don't let me go when i'm this low. You make me stronger each day. You lead me all the way. Before I stopped to ask the question why. With you there's always be brighter days. Even on the coldest nights, even when the sun won't shine. It's sweeter in the morning time, just knowing that you're there. I'm sorry i can't be perfect. I know that I am the only one to blame. Whatever, wherever, there will be good times waiting for you. Whatever you hear, I won't disappear. I promise you that. It pounds, and it hurts. Without a reason for living, a chance for forgiving, a time to make it okay. May you find some comfort here. In the arms of the angel, fly away from here. I didn't know what to say, i tried to look the other way. I'll make a wish for you, and hope it will come true. Remember me this way. If you lose your way, think back of yesterday. It seemed forever stopped today. I was lying and hiding the truth away. So don’t make her blue when she writes to you. Thinking back before her, I never knew the meaning of alone. Can you hear it in my voice? Gotta listen when i say. I wanna know as people grow how do they sort it all out. So tell me now i gotta know, when this feeling i got won't let go. I don't wanna waste another day, stuck in the shadow of my mistakes. I've been dying inside, little by little. Take what's left. Make me whole once again. So it's not hard to fall, when you float like a cannonball. I've been heading in the wrong direction. Hiding from my own protection. Running but my heart was standing still. You know it was your love that saved me. Stones taught me to fly. Love taught me to cry. Courage teach me to be shy. You seem a million miles away from me, but i'm right here beside you. You know i can't go on, living like we do. Do I have to cry for you? How can i be smiling when you're gone. I hope you still feel small when you stand beside ocean. Whenever one door closes, one more opens. Only you, can make me feel this way. Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance, and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance. Don't go and break this fragile. Please just don't play with me, my paper heart will bleed. You've been fine, I've been bleeding. Teach me how to stop all this now. Anything you ask of me, I'll do. Hold on if you feel like letting go. Cause i made a stupid mistake. If i could take you back tomorrow, if i could release the pain and sorrow. Is it all, or nothing at all. Is it all, or are we just friends. With a simple telephone call, you leave me here, with nothing at all. I'll do anything it takes to make it right. Help me figure out the difference between right and wrong. My mask has fallen and now all these tears can't stop. Cause i can't stop crying, and i won't look down. I can't help it, but i'm being emotionally unstable. Seem like my only truth is you. I must have been a fool. I'll never walk out on you. Make me stop crying. I don't understand, and you're making me confuse. If only i knew how to stop the pain. I'm no Superman, but with you i feel i'm flying.

Labels: drowning, friends, stupidity of mine