I'm prepared to fail.
I've always felt that way ever since i found out there's no use wishing to pass with someone like that.
Slides and textbooks are useless.
I'm done here.

Au Revoir.
but our ship's not coming back.

Labels: school, stressed out.

I hate homework.
I really do.
They stink so bad.
They stink like poo.

I don't want school.
Cause it isn't cool.
It makes me sad.
And it makes me mad.

Haha, i don't know what is this.
It's due to the stress i'm having.
Holidays, i'll really miss
Goodbye, why are you leaving?

Then i don't know what to say
I'm sorry but please go away
Off you go homework let me play
Why can't the holiday just stay

Okay, that's all i can think of.
Make sure you don't get the flu and cough
Wait, that's good so we can get another week off
But bleah, this is really awf(ul)

Time for me to go and see what's on tv.
In french, we use the word regarder or voir.
Yay, at six there's The Nanny
Now i guess is Au Revoir.

Labels: homework., random, school, stressed out.

Well, believe or not, i did wake up at 2am this morning while listening to the song. But nope, i didn't curse anyone's name.

For the record, i've been listening to the song same over and over again for one hundred and ninety-four times since last night. Whee.

I'm having hearing problems i tell you.
I keep on hearing 'Screaming and faiing and kissing in the rain'
Gosh.

Anyway, no matter how much i listen to the song, i still can't remember the tune when i'm not hearing the song. Lousy.

Anyway, there's so much projects to do over the holidays. Sheesh. What's the point of calling it a holiday anyway?

A month of no school. That's like only 28 days man.

I still want seventy days like last year end of year holidays.

Miss Lim and Miss Lee are going away man. Gosh. I feel guilty.

There's french oral on thursday, and i haven't study one bit. Sheesh. I don't think i remember a bit of french anymore. Sabrina help me!

Sepet was fun yesterday, well i guess it was because me and Sabrina associated the characters well. Haha. Bodoh.

There's NDP Rehearsal tomorrow. Meaning i have to withstand Nisa and Belinda the whole day. Hahahahahaha. Plus, i can see Simplify.

I almost want to say Fifteen. See, the impact on bloggin about Fifteen the whole day yesterday. Gosh, Fifteen!

I need to go sleep now.
Au Revoir.

Labels: fifteen, french., homework., music post., NDP, school, simplify, stressed out.

I was wondering during science class today, how could all the different systems in our body fit into one place? The digestive system, the circulatory system, the respiratory system, the skeletal system, the reproductive system, the nervous system, and whatever other systems that i don't seem to remember at this current moment in time. I mean, seriously, how can everything fit into one body, without a system interferring another system? Do you ever wonder about that? I've always wondered, how complex and complicated our body is, and to make it worse, feelings and emotions make it more and more complex, and complicated.

I think i'm suffering from multiple personality disorder. Haha. I mean, look, i don't know myself anymore. I don't know the person i am, the person i don't know.

In any case, i seriously think that Matt is better looking when his hair is cut short. Haha, guess who cut his hair? Suzy. Haha. He doesn't even let a professional stylist cut his hair, and then he let Suzy cut his hair. Haha. There were definately something going on between them. Haha, why do i realise that Suzy and Matt are always beside each other. Haha. Well, Jeff is so nice man. He thinks of everyone else, not for himself. Sadly, Jeff is eliminated. Matt and Suzy voted for him, i guess they discussed it together. Haha. Just kidding.

Why do i feel that tomorrow is thursday instead? Gosh, i can't wait for Thursday. FRENCH! Haha. I'm falling in love with french class now. Haha. All thanks to Liyana. Haha. Gosh, Liyana is not coming on thursday. So i have to be her 'secretary', collecting her worksheets. Sheesh. Not i mind though. Haha. But i can't joke with her. Boohoohoo.

I love Super Mario. I should play Mario and Sonic X at The Olympics soon. Like when holiday starts. Gosh, it's not even April yet and i'm here wishing for June holidays to come. Great, i'm so smart.

And i still have so many projects to do.
1) La Brochure Touristique.
2) Les memoires de Singapour.
3) Dream house
4) English Advertising
5) Pelly D.

And then i kept on hearing Mrs RW saying 'foreshadowing' as 'pour chez lui'. No wonder i kept on thinking why she's saying about for his house.

Au Revoir.
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing in everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

Labels: drowning, french., friends, homework., random, school, stressed out., stupidity of mine, things to ponder.

I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away

Well, i'm cheating the date again. Anyway, went to school as per usual. Nothing interesting to talk about. Morning assembly was draggy. I can barely pay attention cause i wanted to sleep. Anyway, when it was finally over, we had physical education. Haha. I'm just weird, so that's why i'm spelling everything out. Haha.

PE was like so damn it. Gah. Okay, so first, we had to listen to him babble about something i forgot cause i wasn't really paying attention cause i couldn't look up cause later my eyes blinded by the sunlight. Uh, so anyway, after all that crap things he said that i never listen, we had to do stretching exercises. Why is it that i can reach my right ankle but not the left?! Please don't tell me it's a defect, you know, that actually one leg is shorter than the other. Sheesh. One malleted to the ground is it?! Then sad to say, we had to run 1.6km. That's just so killing me. Luckily, Nithya the geog rep ran with me. Yay. Thank you so much for that. Though you need to train for 2.4, you still ran with me! Thanks so much so that. You're the bomb!

I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
To show you the way

After the murderous 1.6, i almost died. Seriously. It was damn tiring man. Then we went to the sit and reach place and standing broadjump. But i did neither. Hah. Died already lah, still want me to do?! So in the end, i just looked at the other class practising learning how to jump.

So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes
I'd take you away

Ricky Tan demo-ed for us how to jump, and then he said that the sports rep must collect one dollar from each and every one of us for that. Haha, like beggar like that. Then after everything, when PE was finally over, he came down and then said bye to the rest of us who were purposely wanting to go for maths late.

Then was maths. Python's theory plus SOH CAH TOA equals mahyem. Gah. Borebore. Then was malay. We discussed about the Sood Mahu Kahwin story and stuff. Yeah. I sat beside Liyana! Wooh. Yay. Gosh, i miss sitting next to her during malay.

Then was supposed to be history, but then Mr Chai came to class thirty minutes late. I was like saying to Anu that maybe he thought it was recess and then during real recess, he go our class and wonder why there's no one in class. Haha. So while he wasn't there, i did some of the history homework. Haha. But still didn't finish.

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here

Then it was recess, but i did the still unfished unfinished history holiday homework. Haha. But still again, never finish. Haha. Anyway, i was laughing at something funny that happened during guides roll call for the session on week nine friday. Haha. Damn funny. As i was laughing like a mad girl on the loose, Nisa looked outside the window and saw Mr Chue. So she waved at him. And then i turned my head and saw him looking through the window. Sheesh! He must have thought that i'm some crazy girl who just escape from the mental asylum. OMG, i realised something. Asylum? AsyLUM. Haha.

So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
Was somebody who cares

Then it was science. Everyone was in class, but then suddenly Miss Thang came in and said that we're supposed to go to the lab! So we went there and did the experiment. At first, the visking tubing she drew looked like hotdogs, and then after she drew the test tubes, it looked like ice-cream instead. Sighs. I love ice-cream! Anyway, i, as number one, was in charge of the starch. Sheesh. Out of all things, i'm still number one! Oh man.

Then it was english but then Mrs RW came into class late cause she lost track of the time. But then we started discussing about our advertising projects before she came, so see, we're such good students. :D

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on

Before guides, i was doing the normal stuffs i do before guides. Okay. Then we had guides. Coy one had to do skipping. Then Mdm Lum had to come and see us skip ah?! Sheesh lah her. Some more i cannot skip! Even as we moved downstairs, she still kept on looking at us. Sheesh.

Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

Anyway, i saw someone walking past somewhere and then i was like 'phew, luckily i wasn't skipping at that time!' Bottomline is, i can't skip. We had to do this dance thingy using skipping ropes. Gah, but i can't skip, so i just tried to skip normally. Though it still proves unsucessful.

All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there

Then we waited for coy two and had taps and addiction announcements. I was standing beside Mdm Faridah man! So scary! Anyway, i'm going for yeoman this saturday. Yeah, got nothing better to do. Then that's all you have to know.

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
Was somebody who cares

Anyway, i saw Umairah and said hello to her. Ick, her class is having their dinner for parents tonight though she's not going for that. Uh, so, good luck i guess. Yeah. See, i'm such a good person.

Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

Au Revoir.
Seven times, plus a few more, is slowly making me insane.

Labels: drowning, fifteen, friends, guides:], homework., school, stressed out., stupidity of mine

Hello again, fellow earthlings. I am still stuck with undone homework due tomorrow and i'm still here. What a good student am i.

First off, morning assembly was the same old, same old. Gosh, sitting at the back certainly provides a damn good view. And they were talking to each other for a very long time. Hmm, actually, i don't mind them together. Seriously, they look nicer together rather than that wooman whom i don't like, don't you think so? Yay, i support them. Wait, it's just another fake rumour i'm making up. Muahahahah.

It doesn't really feel like a new school day of a new term. Still feels like the same old, same old. Cause having to come back to school everyday seemed like having school. Just that you don't sit in class and listen to the teacher babbling and you don't see the usual sights you see everyday. I know, cause i'm someone who look outside the window every minute, every hour, everyday. I admit, it's becoming a habit for me to just look outside the window and see the usual people walking pass the lovely corridor. I confess, i'm a loser who has nothing better to do in class but to look outside the window.

Now i'm sitting beside Anu, behind Nisa and behind beside Jaslyn. Gosh, i love this combination of people. The people who know the secret which not supposed to be spoken unless i started it. I'm still sitting at the exclusive seat meant for me, which has the best view in the house. You get to see the window.

I couldn't be bothered to think how to do homework right now cause part of my brain has started sleeping ever since i got sleepy. Gosh, i'm sleepy. I should make friends with Sleeping Beauty. Wait, can i make friends with Prince Phillip instead? What about Prince Eric? Oh wait, I want my Shang!

Hmm, my life seems to be revolving around disney nowadays. I tend to associate certain people with some disney characters. I think that's because i watched too much cartoons. Oh yeah, i can associate people with Power Ranger Mighty Mophin as well. Who wants to be Ivan Ooze, raise your hands!

Well, i like writing like this nowadays. It seems nicer. Like i'm writing a real diary entry in a diary. Though most of the time, i write crappy things i don't dare to write here in my diary. Wait, i do crappy things here, it's just that the crappy things in my diary were childish crappy things.

Now i'm listening to Why Do I Love You on my mp4 right now. I love the song. It's super awesome. You know, i only listen to super awesome songs. Wow, i'm so being evil these days. I should be a nice person. See, currently i'm helping Maryam out with her Malay homework.

Okay, i'm going to sleep now. And i haven't been writing to my manito. I've been busy with undone homework, how can i still write letters? Oh well, my angel seems to be very free. She gave me a lot of letters until i don't even have time to read them at all. Good good angel, too bad she has a lazy mortal.

Au Revoir.
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Labels: drowning, fifteen, friends, homework., school, stressed out.

I'm so sorry cause we didn't win GPA. But that doesn't mean we're not good, it's just that the judges think the other schools did better. Don't worry cause we didn't win, cause in the end, all that mattered that we put in our best effort into the performance, although we did forget a line or two.

To the sec three seniors, thank you for your extreme guidence and encouragement. I know you guys did your best to make sure everyone performs well. Nevermind the scoldings and all that, i know it's for the best. Thank you so much for being there for us and improve on where we lacked. I really appreciate you guys being there for us when we needed you guys the most.

To the sec twos, i'm glad that we made it through yesterday. Though we're busy with stuffs and all, and even though we don't have the time to finish all our homeworks, i'm glad we survived it. Though i'm gonna get killed tomorrow. We shall do better next year, yeah?

To the sec one juniors, you guys did a great job. Although it's your first time this year, i think you guys have done well. To Umairah and Sabrina, thanks for the lighting. To Sharifah and Yasmin, thanks for the performance. All of you guys are great, although we, your seniors, ask you guys to bring the things home and all. Sorry about that. It's incredible that you guys actually reached school earlier than us, especially me. Haha. I'm a very bad example, i know. Don't be discourage that we didn't win. You guys did great. (although i know that you people won't be reading this blog, muahahahaha) I think you sec ones are better than us sec twos last year. Haha. I think it's only me who feels that way. Oh well, you still have this bad senior of yours for two more years. Hahahaha.

Well, i've listed down the reasons why we didn't win but i'm not gonna post it here. Nevermind i put at a different date again, what i feel is still the same. We'll do better next year, i hope. Boohoo, i haven't finish homework yet. I'm gonna owe a lot of late homework. Dead. That's why i'm gonna get killed tomorrow. So if you don't see me tomorrow, you'll know the reasons why. Why do the sec ones this year so hardworking? They finished all their homework so early. Unlike me. Gosh, i'm a bad example. Why do i seem to be writing very long these days?

Au Revoir.
And yes, if you ML people don't see me at ML tomorrow, that's because i have an important thing to do after school. Sorry for that, but it's important.

Labels: GPA, homework., ML, school, stressed out.

Had NDP practice at school and then GPA practice.
And then i'm pissed off cause of something and cried but then now i'm okay cause of the futur proche birthday girl, Sabrina. Happy happy advanced birthday to you! We were, and forever will be ----------'s students number one and two. And out of everything, i'm number one?! Sheesh.
I've decided. I'm letting go of everything. I'm going to start anew.
Bonjour, je m'appelle Rabiatul. J'ai 13 ans. Je n'aime pas aller a l'ecole.

I haven't start on holiday homework yet. Tell me what's the point of having holiday homework when the holidays aren't really holidays? Why give homework then since there isn't any holiday? Don't you think that's irrational-giving holiday homework when you don't have a holiday? Teachers, teachers, sometimes i think they're too cruel. Sometimes? I meant everytime.

I got Liyana to lend me her phone during ML so that i could get more songs from her. So i practically helped myself and took eleven songs from her.

Life isn't always how you want it to be.

Stumble and fall,
Is the heart of it all,
When you fall down,
Just try again.

Okay, i ought to go now. Need to go and find some keroncong video.
Good luck to me tomorrow.
Allez Rabiatul, tu le peux faire.

Au Revoir.
Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're, you're never there
But when I sleep you're, you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Labels: 40 kinds of sadness, school, stressed out.

Uh, i think i'm officially addicted to facebook.
Scary.
I need to do my thousand and one hundred fifty three homework right now.
Hyperbole.
Sheesh.
Hah.
Then i need to study for history, geography and maybe science.
And i need to copy down notes for french.
Busy.
I still have a lot of things to do.
Gah.
And i'm still here, using computer.
Okay, i need to go now.
Seriously.

Au Revoir.

Labels: homework., random, school, stressed out.

It rained oh super heavily today.
I hate the fact that i was drenched.
Gah.
Nisanisanisa, or rather Nish.
You are an obsessive stalker, i have to confess.
See, i'm no where near your obsessiveness.
You're mental, i'm sure of that.

I don't know why but i just created a Facebook profile yesterday, at around 6 something to 7 something. I'm just bored, i know. And now i'm uploading pictures on my profile. Gah, i'd better start finding people now.

I am COLD. Je suis froid. Is that the correct french term? I hope so. Gosh, can you believe that maths common test is tomorrow? Sheesh people. WTH. I think i'm going to fail. Yeah. Good luck to me.

French controle is next next week. I hope i do well for this controle. Please. I think i can improve cause seeing my french right now, it's better than before. Tres bien, tres bien. Accents please.

Hmm, we had TOP on the 1st and 2nd period today.
Briefing on LJ to Farmstay.
-_-"

Then was maths.
I can die at this rate man.

Then was PE.
Badminton!
Haha, seriously i thought he looked like a zookeeper carrying a bucket of fish to feed to the sealions.
Haha.
Je suis desolee.

Then was Recess.
And then Malay.
And then Science.

We had roll call and patrol corner as usual for guides today.
Sparrows welcomed its newest members, 3 new Sec Ones.
They are more quiet than me, Rachel and Claudia.
Haha.
We are the quiet Sparrows.
Haha.
Then we practiced for horseshoe formation.
Then we drank up before really doing the horseshoe formation.

Then Mdm Faridah talked to the whole lot about some stuffs.
Then sec twos had a test on the fifth point-International.
I think i did okay, except for some facts that i don't know (Like Pax Lodge is in England and NOT New Zealand.)
Overall, some mistakes here and there but i think it's okay.
I hope.

Then we had taps.
And then we knew our manitos already.
I don't know who is mine.
Who's that, man?
I don't know.

Then it rained so heavily.
And i went home wet.
Sad, i know.
-_-"
Might as well rain on friday around 10.00am, yeah?

Au Revoir.

Labels: french., guides:], school, stressed out.

It happens every time I see you
Something I just can't explain
My heart stops, skipping a beat
'Cause baby I wanna dance

Went madrasah today.
First lesson was al-quran.
Teacher was Ustazah Zeenat.
Okay lah the lesson.

Then was Akhlak/Akidah.
Teacher was Ustaz Nazree.
He told us to either call him Ustaz Nazree or Ustaz Naz.
Don't call him Ustaz Ree.
Haha.
I think he's quite funny.
And then i felt so terasa when he said something.

After that was Fiqh/Sirah.
Teacher was Ustazah Rosidah.
I think she's okay lah.

Then was recess.
Bought the roti hotdog and the 'ubat' sweet.
Haha, i don't know what it's called.
But i call it ubat since everyone call it that.
But it's not ubat lah.

Then was Bahasa Arab.
Had to translate word by word.
And then got a lot of 'what time is it'.
Haiz.
The guy in the book like don't know how to tell the time by himself seh.
And he kept on asking his friend for the time from 1 o'clock to 12 o'clock.
I think he's number illiterate.
I don't know what's the term called.
Haha.

Then went home.
And my ez-link card has only $3.50 left!
Didn't i just top up $10 last tuesday?
Sheesh.
Need to top up again.
Haiz.

Every time I see you smiling
I hear music everywhere
My heart stops, skipping a beat
'Cause baby I wanna dance

I love this song so much man.
Left To Right-Natural.
Quite a old song lah.

Anyway, for the NYAA thing,
I am going to plan for what i'm going to do for each session.
I need to be serious about it man.
Oh man, so stressful!

Service-15 hours/3 months.
=5 hours/month.
So since currently, my only free day is tuesday, i will spend around one and half hours every tuesday to help out at the library after school.

Adventurous journey-2 Nights/3 days
I think guides camp can cover for it.
Can right?
Please say yes.

Skills-6 months
French classes.
Deal.
Just need to record what happened in french class.

Physical Recreation-20 hours/8 weeks
=2 and 1/2 hours/week.
Sheesh.
My swimming lesson is only 1 hour.
So maybe after the lesson, i shall go and continue for another half and hour.
The remaining hour i could go swimming on either fridays or saturdays when i'm free on my own.
Okay, hopefully this plan works.
And then i have to start recording by today.
Oh man, sheesh.

So hopefully, everything will work out as planned.
Need to start now.
Haiyoh.
Time consuming.
But i think if i just follow the plan, it might turn out okay.
I do want to get the award right?
Well, wish me luck.
Bronze award here i come.

Can't you see, what you do
Now i only wanna be with you

Okay, so today i have a lot of things to do.
1)Maths homework and corrections.
2)Science homework.
3)Geography Newspaper Cutting.
4)Literature-Question 1 and 2
5)English? I think so, the page two of it.
6)Malay? I haven't check yet.
7)French online homework.-45 minutes.
8)Swimming at 4.
9)Colour the timetable when i have the time.
10)Go and figure out who to sell the tickets to.
11)Update private blog.
12)Update song blog.
And that's about it.

And my life is going to be stressful and more stressful.
I got the Chingay thing.
And the gardening.
Need to plan for the argumentative essay.
Need to find a small exercise book for malay.
But i'm just going to use the big exercise book because we can.

Lessons for tomorrow.
-Morning Assembly (gah. please don't talk so long)
-SEL (i think we might be brainstorming for carnival again.)
-Maths (get ready to yawn.)
-Science (get ready to be tested.)
-Recess (ice lemon tea, here i come)
-Reading (animal book, please make me absorb the information.)
-Art (i think we need to hand in the thing we did on friday. Crab, mine sucks.)
-English (argumentative essay again. gah.)
-Literature (the notes again. lih.)
-ML (gah. dikir barat thing. i don't even have the lyrics man.)

So practically, i have no time to unwind.
Sheesh.
And then there's jogging again on tuesday.
Strike one.
PE on wednesday.
Strike two.
And for guides, we might be doing the PVC tents thing according to the calendar given.
Is it FD footdrills?
I'm not so sure.
Why do we have the letters FD and PT like for almost every week?
Don't tell me FD is footdrills and PT is physical training.
Haiz. I kinda doubt the PT thing.
Cause sometimes we need to wear the uniform right?
Then you don't expect us to run in guides uniform right?
Unless.
Erm, what's PVC?
On thursday, gosh.
I don't know what's going to happen.
There's jogging again on friday and there's guides again.
And then i hope that i can do yeoman on saturday which is the induction ceremony.
Please let me go.

So not looking forward to the week coming up.
No time for leisure activities man.
So that means i might have to give up on computer and balsting off my mp4.
Oh gosh.

I'm still wondering why do i have so many coincidents (or is it coincidences?) with someone.
Sheesh.
Too many to count from yesterday.

Gosh i want it to be like the post-exam period where everyday we come to school and just play.

Au Revoir.
To the left, to the right
This girl is out of sight
I'm going up going down
You make me feel so light
Spinning round and round
So high above the ground
Girl you keep me up all night
You got my heart from left to right

Labels: guides:], school, stressed out.

I only have 3+2-3 1/2 days left.
Which equals to 1 1/2 days left.
I'm so dead.

Things to do by Monday.

-Geography
Reflections

-History
Assignment beyond my comprehension

-French
Listen to audio files(as usual)
Verbs ending with -ER which i can't do hyphens.
I can't even do it on my blog.
Sad.
And it's dued on 2 April.
Or deuxieme avril for that matter.

At least it's better than the last time.
I've cleared most of my homework.

P.S: I do not want to take 966.
For fear of meeting Him.

Yes, him.
The one she likes.

Au Revoir.
4 days to IT.
3 days to Armeera's birthday.
But i think i'm giving her present late.
Cause i haven't buy it yet.
So i can't give to Sara for delivery.
Sorry, Power Ranger.

P.S.-Today is George Eads birthday!!!

Labels: homework., stressed out.